I TWO HAVE A SERIOUSLY BIG WHOLE IN MY HEART FROM THE STEALING OF MY TWO CHILDREN LOGAN AND KEELEY,THIS HAPPENED IN JAN 1998,POLICE KNOCK ON MY DOOR SAYING I HAD A WARRANT FOR MY ARREST FOR FAILURE TO APPEAR ,THEY WOULD NOT LET MY MOTHER COME AND GET THEM SO THEY TOOK THEM ,ARREST ME IN FRONT OF THEM ,THEY ARE PULLING MY BABIES FROM MY ARMS LEGS PRYING THEM FROM MY BODY ,WELL LET ME TELL YOU ALL OF A SUDDEN MY WARRANT FOR MY ARREST GAVE ME TEN DAYS IN JAIL SAID THEY WOULD RETURN THEM WHEN I GOT OUT .SO I PROCEEDED TO GET MY CHILDREN AND THEN I WAS TOLD I HAD A VERY BIG SUBSTANCE ABUSE PROBLEM AND COULD NOT EVEN VISIT THEM ,SO I FOUGHT CRIED,BEGGING EVERYDAY ,SO AFTER TWO MONTHS I GOT TO SEE THEM FOR ONE HOUR SUPERVISED ,HORRIFIC ON THIER LITTLE EYES AND HEARTS ,CSD TOLD MY TWO ANGELS I DID NOT WANT THEM WHICH WAS TOALLY UNTRUE ,HEART ACHE TREATMENT DOMESTIC VIOLENCE COUNSELING ,UAS ,EVERYTHING THEY WANTED NO CHILDREN STILL,EVENTUALLY THE JUDGE AND SCF TOLD ME THEY WERE RELINQUISHING MY RIGHTS ,THAT WAS IN THE BEST INTEREST OF THE STATE NOT US ,IN THE END I HAD A HOUR VISIT WITH MY CHILDREN IN 2000 FOR I HOUR AND HAD TO TELL THEM THEY WERE NOT COMING HOME THEY WERE BEING ADOPTED ,OH GOD THE PAIN THE SHAME THE HURT ,THERE IS NOT A DAY I DONT HURT AS IM SURE THEY DO TO PLEASE MY LITTLE ANGELS MOMMY IS STILL HERE LOVING YOU AND MISSING YOU SO IMMENSLY,THAT I MAKE MYSELF PHYSICALLY SICK ,CRYING MY SELF TO SLEEP WISHING I COULD HOLD YOU TWO AND SMELL YOU AND TELL YOU HOW MUCH I DO LOVE YOU AND HAVE NEVER STOPPED I LOVE YOU TWO THE STARS AND BEYOND......YOUR MOMMIE KAREN SCHNEIDER ,,,,SOMEONE PLEASE STOP THIS TRAGEDY